"On the way dowstairs the elevator door closed on my foot and while we were waiting for my mom to go get the car Anthony made me fall where it was muddy and then when I started crying because of the mud Nick said I was a crybaby and while I was punching Nick for saying crybaby my mom came back with the car and scolded me for being muddy and fighting.
I'm having a terrible, horrible, no good very bad day, I told everybody. No one even answered.......
There were lima beans for dinner and I hate limas. There was kissing on TV and I hate kissing. My bath was too hot, I got soap in my eyes, my marble went down the drain, and I had to wear my railroad-train pajamas. I hate my railroad-train pajamas.
When I went to bed Nick took back the pillow he said I could keep and the Mickey Mouse night light burned out and I bit my tongue. The cat wants to sleep with Anthony, not with me.
It's been a terrible, horrible, no good very bad day.
My mom says some days are like that. "
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So my day yesterday, was pretty bad. It made me think of this childrens' book by Judith Viorst. The book is funny, I guess because it's sorta cynical. Maybe it's our sinful natures that makes us find humor in the sarcastic, cynical things. The book tries to make a point that everyone all over the world has bad days and there is just no getting out of them. Fair point; however, not the full perpsective. It's not a Christian book, so it lacks good instruction. The mom should have said something like, "In everything give thanks" or "Rejoice in the Lord always".
Well, I tried yesterday to not be like Alexander going through his rough day, but let me tell you it was hard. Doug said he was proud of me because I really only cried a few times, and only 1 of those times was bad!
Yesterday we woke up to our van not starting again, and it had to get towed away. Although, Audrey did find much pleasure in watching them tow it away. Audrey wasn't feeling well in the morning and took a lot of it out on me while I was trying hard to get ready to go to an appointment.
Doug and I met with an adoption lawyer and things didn't go well at all. Not only did we get bad news, but we had to drop several hundreds of dollars more than we were expecting! When we got home and we tearfully relayed most of the story to my mom, come to find out she unknowingly ate what was supposed to be Doug's and my dinner for her lunch. So mom SO GRACIOUSLY invited us over to their house for dinner. On our way over to mom's and dad's Audrey gave us the scare of our lives!!! We were driving in our little Corolla and I suppose the different environment of the little bitty car was pretty intriguing to her. As we were rounding a corner on the road, she opened her door. It flung open with so much force. You talk about wigged out - that is ME, not her! You just should have seen me. I'm crying, I'm yelling. I'm trying to scare the life out of Audrey so she knows to never do that again all the while being so welled up with gratitude that my only child didn't go flying out onto the road. It was just a little much after my day!!!
I couldn't fall asleep until a little after 4 this morning. Doug's alarm went off at 6:30! A wee bit too early!
OUR APPT WITH THE LAWYER
Yesterday Doug and I met with a lawyer (a good but very expensive lawyer) about the embryo adoption. The paper work and contracts we have received from the adoption center have many ambiguities and even incorrect statements regarding the law. Doug and I had formed a massive list of questions for the center as well as our adoption lawyer.
So far,the center has not been dealing with us very pleasantly because we ask so many questions. Our lawyer talked with the center today and fears the embryo center could even kick us out of the program because we have so many questions. It would seem, because the program is so new, their contracts are not very tested by law. And, because the program is trying to preserve life in a heathen society that has laws governing life as “property”, the center is somewhat flying under the radar with certain laws and taking some big gambles with that law.
Doug and I really, really want to make sure we’ve thought through EVERYTHING and have legally provided for all situations and ensure a tight contract governing the life of our child. We are working hard to strike a balance between following laws our government has set and having a family in a moral way!
Right now, the lawyer is anticipating needingto do a plethera of work for us, including rewriting a massive new contract. This is very costly, obviously. But mostly, we are unsure if the center will even allow us to rework the contract our way. We could go along in the process pouring our money and time into the program and a lawyer, and then the program would kick us out at any time because we are stirring up too much trouble. This is pretty scary for us.
As it stands today, we are waiting to hear from our lawyer, after she gets in touch with the program’s lawyer to see if it is even possible to amend these contracts. Doug will be talking with the center’s coordinator to smooth the way for this legal road we are on. Thursday I have an appointment with the center’s fertility specialist.
Pray that we will not be kicked out of the program for stirring up legal questions that scare them. Pray our lawyer will be allowed to draft the right type of paperwork we need to protect us and the child. Pray this can be done efficiently and cheaply as possible. We have a lot of emotion today as we feel we have hit a brick wall. We had been so excited about this embryo adoption. And now we fear that this process is just too new and uncharted in the legal world and perhaps we shouldn’t take these risks in order to obtain a child in this manner.
DOUG'S HOME!! yeeeaaaahhhhhh!
Doug was gone all last week in Vancouver on business. He got back very late Saturday night. I was getting pretty lonely. And I was getting sick of the late night growling and boofing Sadie does late at night, only on nights Doug is away from home!!
Last week, Audrey and I were able to accomplish a few goals we had set out to do. She accompanied me to find a few new summer clothes for myself. It's always an interesting thing to take a child into a dressing room. She gets bored in there. She asks me tons of questions about why the dressing rooms are messy, why there are so many hangers, threads, and tags on the floor, etc. She wants to know why I try on so many things and buy so little. And of course, ALL kids desire to look under the stall walls. Not sure what that fascination is, but I'm positive it's encoded in all toddlers' DNA! But we left the dressing room victorious. I was sweaty, but I had my sanity mostly in tact and a few items of clothing under my arm!!!
Audrey and I bought and planted all our summer flowers. We potted 3 hanging planters, 3 pots of herbs, 1 GI-NORMOUS pot, 30 flowers around the mailbox, about 40 in the front flower bed, and Audrey's own 2 little snail and turtle pots. We planted the majority of them in the rain. I'm sure my neighbors thought I was crazy, but planting in saturated Tennessee red clay is definetly easier than planting in that stuff when it's dry!