Things have been kinda ho-hum around here lately. Nothing huge to report on, I suppose. We've been doing our normal routine -- living life with incredible stability and purpose anchored on our Lord!! And of course, we're plugging away at all the daily tasks that to some may be mundane, but for us are filled with opportunity and purpose. Having a spouse and child -- a family -- and being a part of the family of God sure makes life a constant decision to obey and love.
After three really rough weeks of fatigue, pain, fevers and infections, I think I"m starting on the road back up! My allergies have been so nasty. I feel like I have a sinus infection, strep, and pink eye all at the same time. It's always worse at night and first thing in the morning. That really contributes to my rough nights.
Looks like I'll be headed back to the neurologist soon. It's been a while since I was there and I need to be reevaluated to see if things have changed. Also, after some suspicion years ago that I could have MS, I need to follow it up to either eliminate that as a possiblity or find more evidence worthy of more testing.
In a few weeks here, I suppose we're going to be going back to Dr, Doody, the fertility specialist, to more diligently pursue baby #2. All our efforts alone and/or conbined with Clomid just aren't doing the trick. This time the idea of going back to Dr. Doody seems more daunting. I know the reality this time of how much it costs, how time consuming all the visits will be, how much blood will be drawn, and how life won't seem very private for a while. The money issue is definitely the greatest to wrestle with. And this time around, there just isn't much. But, we know ultimately God has a plan to prosper us and give us a future. In the end there is nothing I can do to make a baby. It's all God's doing. This time I feel more prepared and more set on being content for what I do have, not rebelling against God's plan, and looking at things that are eternal not temporal. In one sense I hate that this will be a challenge for me, but on the other hand, I want to get into the thick of it. I want to really see if I've learned what I think I've learned. I'm so eager to prove my faith and perservere in order to make my faith stronger. I want to lick some of these struggles. I'm sick of my flesh, my mind, and my sin.
These struggles with my flesh sure make heaven more appealing. Some may be excited to get to heaven for a new physical body or to see loved ones they've lost. Me? I'm most excited to be done with my sin nature. The thought of no pain or fatigue is exciting, don't get me wrong, especially for someone who struggles with many health issues. But my sin by far and away bogs me down more than my physical problems. What an awesome thought to ponder of how someday I'll know what is right and I'll do it - everytime! No more time wasted on figuring out what is right, how to do right, failing, and then trying to figure out why I do the things I know to be wrong if I say I love God. Wow! Refreshing for sure!
Audrey has been busy -- busy learning, growing, establishing rules of cause and affect (especially when it comes to her obedience), and busy making us laugh. She is counting so well (up to 10 all by herself), recognizing letters, putting together 5 word sentences and pretending. She really enjoys pretending to cook. She lines up all manner of dishes, cups, forks, and spoons and mixes, pours, stirs, chops, and creates! A girl after my own heart!! I tink I like her! ;-) She is learning to use expressions like "oh boy", "oh dear", "wow", "cool", "gross", and my personal favorite - "Oh Shnikies"!