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Audrey Is Here!!

Wednesday, 23 July 2003 02:49 by doug

Finally, some time to update ye olde weblog. I told a friend of mine that I'm going to have to outsource the updating of my blog. I hope it doesn't come to that!

Audrey Jillian
In case you haven't heard, our beautiful daughter Audrey Jillian was born via C-Section on July 10! We welcomed her into the world at 6:06 PM; she weighed 7 pounds and was 20 inches long. It was quite a day, and that's putting it lightly. The day progressed according to God's plans, though it looked nothing like our plans. But in the end, of course, God knew best!

Bec has written a wonderful post about the birth, including labor, delivery, and recovery. I know all you women out there watch A Baby Story all the time, so you're dying to read how this all went down. Go check it out. It's quite a story of God's protection and tenderness in a time when things seemed crazy!

I even took a few pictures of the C-Section, if you'd like to see them. I won't parade them around out here on the front page, for those who don't want to see surgery in action!

Everything else
As anyone with a newborn can attest, everything else seems to be put on hold! I have been working, and these last couple of days I've been working from home, which has been very helpful. For the time being, we've taken a leave of absence from the College Class at church (we can't wait to get back!), and I've handed the Internet ministry at West Park back over to Marty completely. This has just been a wonderful couple of weeks coming to know our new baby. May God help us both to be great parents!

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C-Section Pictures

Wednesday, 23 July 2003 02:28 by doug

Bec was quite impressed that I didn't lose my lunch during the c-section, so imagine how shocked she was that I took pictures! But alas, this is my first child coming into the world, and I was instantly determined to capture these photos so that I would never forget the moment!

      

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The Birth of Audrey Jillian

Wednesday, 23 July 2003 02:00 by doug

So, we didn't do too well updating our site like we thought.  Sorry.  Things didn't end up working quite like we thought.  Labor and delivery turned out to be rather complicated and ever since Audrey's been born we've been so busy and so tired.  Many have been asking about the labor and folks want to know all about our little Audrey.  So here's the long awaited update!!

Labor
Bec in the hospital just before labor I arrived at the hosipital at 6am - very tired!!  I was supposed to arrive very well rested with the aid of sleeping pills the 2 previous nights; however, the pills only made me more sleepy. They broke my water and got me on Pitocin at about 7. I was having good contractions by 7:30 and I was doing well getting through them. 

Things changed greatly by about 10:00. I was experiencing back labor, which was more excruciating than I had imagined. Someone had to rub my back constantly, even when I wasn't experiencing a contraction. I was vomiting quite a bit and some neurlogical problems started. My legs were twitching so badly that it was hard to be still and focus on the contractions. We were afraid this would happen, and we had planned that when these neurological problems began to surface, we would ask for an epidural. All along we knew that if I had to go through the neurological problems and labor, that I would be in no position for a C-Section if I had to have one. Since my doctor had told us that I had less than a 15% chance of delivering vaginally, we were pretty sure that a C-Section was in my future. So, at 10:30, I asked for an epidural.

The anesthesiologist decided she wanted to run some bloodwork before giving me the epidural. There was concern about a possible blood disorder. It took nearly a half hour and 5 nurses to find a vein. Once they extracted the blood, they kept telling us that the lab could run the bloodwork in about 5 minutes.  Instead, it was more like 2 1/2 hours.  In the meantime, things were pretty rough.  My contractions were about 1 minute and 45 seconds apart, and rather intense. At one point, the monitors lost Audrey's heartrate for quite some time, and the nurses began slowing down my contractions so that they could be sure that Audrey was alright. They put a probe directly on her head so that they could follow her heartrate more accurately, and they had me lay on my left side and use an oxygen mask. Once they were sure she was fine, they started up the pitocin again and increased the rate and strength of my contractions.

After processing the blood, results revealed that my blood wasn't clotting properly.  These results meant I wasn't allowed to have an epidural because there was a risk of paralysis. We were very upset to hear the news of my blood clotting problem and no epidural because we weren't sure at that point how I'd make it through labor and deal with blood loss. Not only that, they had told us that if I did have to have a C-Section, they would have to put me completely under. That would mean that Doug wouldn't be able to be in there with me, and that I wouldn't get to hold Audrey for quite a while as I recovered. This was definitely troubling.

Labor continued and I was progressing very slowly. The neurological problems, however, became much worse. Around 1:00 my face was spasming terribly and my words were slurring so much that it was hard for me to get a complete thought out. My face, head, and ears were tingling and going numb.  My right hand kept tingling and my eyesight was starting to blur and strobe. Through all of this, I somehow continued to breathe through the contractions and get through each one. It was becoming very clear, though, that things were going downhill fast. I was still hoping, though, that I would be able to make it through labor and have a vaginal delivery.

Us in the hospitalAt 2:00 the nurses checked me and found that I had dilated to 4cm and was 80% effaced. Audrey was also at 0-station, which means she had begun to move into the pelvis. This was encouraging to us all, and we hoped that the next hour would bring an even greater change. But God had other plans. The neurological problems got even worse between 2:30 and 3:00. My husband compared it to when I have one of my migranes, which make me nearly incoherent, unable to talk, or focus on anything. By this time, it was so bad that Doug and I decided it was time to opt for a C-Section. The nurses, though, would not allow that until they checked me one more time to see how I was progressing. So, at 3:00, they checked and found that I was in the exact same condition as I had been in at 2:00. There was no change. The nurses called my doctor, and he agreed that it was time for a C-Section.

Once it was decided to have the C-section, the doctors tried to stop the contractions.  Unfortunately for me, the medication they were giving me wasn't working.  Contractions were still frequent and painful and the urgency to push was becoming too real - and I was only at 4cm.  When the c-section decision was made the anesthesiologist informed me that I would need to be put completely under for the operation.  Because of the blood clotting problem, they would not allow a epidural or spinal tap.  We discussed a platlette infusion, but the anesthesiologist had another idea.  She conferred with a few other collegues and it was decided to give me some new medication they thought would help the problem.  So, a big bag of medicine was added to my IV and we waited for quite a while to get that into my system.  After the medicine was in, we went trough the whole drawing blood fiasco - 30 minutes, 4 nurses and finally, a vein! Testing the blood took again longer than expected to process but finally yielded positive results.  The medicine had cause me to clot well enough to have a spinal tap and be awake for the deivery with Doug in the operating room.  We were overjoyed. With contractions still going I was wheeled into the operating room and things got underway!

Delivery
Audrey was born at 6:06pm weighing 7lbs even and 20 inches long. Soon as the doctor cut me open he said it was very obvious that Audrey never came close to fitting through the birth canal.  We were glad we had tried a vaginal birth, but thankful for modern medicine and science that made it possible for Audrey to come into the world.  In fact, we've thanked God on several occasions that we live in this generation.  It's wild to think that there was a time Audrey and I would've died because of this situation. We now know that future babies can only be brought into the world via c-sections!

I loved having everything narrated to me in the operating room. I only wish I could have watched it all as is happened. Doug instantly metamorphisized into a new man in that operating room.  The man who once could pass out at a restaurant if conversation at the table got too icky, actually stood up and took pictures of the doctor pulling Audrey from my belly.  I told him to go with Audrey and report to me everything that was going on.  He did a great job and wasn't even grossed out by the exent of her cheesyness!!  Doug even took the doctor up on his offer to get a look at my uterus and ovaries!  What a guy!!

Doug and I had some time alone with Audrey before we let in all the family.  We knew they were all chomping at the bit in the hallway to see her, but we wanted our own time together as a family. What a sweet, emotional time.  We praised God and prayed and told her what a miracle she was.  We told her how scientifically she was never supposed to happen but indeed was a treasure from the Lord. 

Recovery and the First Two Weeks
I came home from the hospital on Monday afternoon.  Healing is slow, but so much better than expected.  In the first 36 hours Audrey's weight dropped to 6lbs 4 oz.  She was jaundice and very lethargic.  Feeding her in the hospital was a challenge requiring several extra hands to keep her eating.  Last week she had to go to the doctor two times to have her weight and jaundice monitored.  As of Friday, the 18th, she was up to 6lbs 13oz. 

Audrey has been sleeping about 7 hours straight give or take an hour each night.  During the day she is content to only eat every 5 hours.  The doctors say she needs to eat more often during the day, so we wake her every 3 1/2 - 4 hours.  Keeping her awake is still a struggle, but we are not too concerned because she is gaining weight.  I have been told to drink caffeine to help keep her awake and to not take any pain medicine.  The caffeine thing is not trouble - in fact, I've been given permission to support my coffee addiction! But,not taking my medicine has been rough.  I was given enough medicine for several weeks and only got to take it for a couple days.  So, needless to say, I am pretty sore and weak. 

My folks stayed for several days with us.  It was helpful to have my mother bring Audrey to me when she was hungry.  Mom fixed all the meals and did laundry.  My dad cleaned and fixed stuff like a maniac.  We were shocked he didn't have an addition built onto the house by the time he left! Doug has been able to work from home some, so that has been a huge weight off my mind.

Our Little Girl
Audrey sleeping in the hospital just before we brought her home Ok, She's precious.  I mean I know we are partial, but my goodness, she's pretty.  She's got such a nicely shaped head.  Everything is proportioned so well on her little face.  No marks or bumps or scratches.  Her fingers are so long and her feet are long too.  Her cheeks are so kissable.  She seems just like a little peanut.  I had prayed frivoulsly for a pretty baby that weighed between 6 and 6 1/2 lbs.  We walked out of the hospital with a 6lb 5 oz baby! 

I had prayed for a mild tempered baby who loves to sleep.  God is so good - that is what we have.  She is so content.  She rarely fusses and lets me sleep!  She loves 3 things: her hands, her Kick 'N Play bouncer, and her daddy!  She always is playing with her hands and has them up around her face - just like every ultrasound!  She loves the flashing lights, music and vibrations of her bouncer.  But most of all, Audrey loves Doug. Since the night she was born, we were amazed at her response to Doug's face and voice.  She quiets herself instantly and concentrates when he speaks.  She locks eyes with him and follows him as he moves.  She responds to him like no other.  My folks were amazed, I'm amazed, the nurses were amazed.  She's definitely Daddy's little girl!

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Off To the Hospital We Go

Thursday, 10 July 2003 11:47 by doug

7:50 AM - Well, it's ten till 8 and things are well under way. Bec and I pulled ourselves out of bed at 4:00 this morning (ok, we actually finally dragged ourselves out of bed at more like 4:10). We made our way to the hospital along with Bec's folks and made it here at 5:40 or so. After a quick check-in we were up in our room and Bec was in the bed with an IV.

The nurse started the pitocin (which will bring on labor) at about 7:30. She said it would only take about 20 minutes for the contractions to start. Before the nurse could leave the room, the doctor came in and got everything ready to break Bec's water. This was not as simple a process as it sounded in the classes. It was actually pretty painful. But Bec came through with flying colors.

Bec's already had about 4 contractions, and we're well on our way! More to come later!

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Anticipating Audrey's Arrival

Thursday, 10 July 2003 02:51 by doug

Well, in less than 24 hours I will more than likely be holding my new little baby daughter. One might find it a little odd that I'm sitting here typing up a post for our site. The truth is I've been running around this house like a sporadically blubbering lunatic these last few days. I have 7 lists on the island - to-do lists, what to pack for the hospital list, meals that can be made, phone call lists, etc. Its crazy. I'm such a planner, such a perfectionist. I'm hoping some typing will be theraputic!

I guess it's hard to not be anxious about tomorrow. I hope I can get enough sleep tonight and feel rested in the morning. It's totally wierd not knowing if I'll need a c-section. I dread that thought. I worry that Doug will get tired and bored at the hospital with me. I think about all the people who are wanting to come up to the hospital. I want folks to come, but I keep trying to make sure all the right people were invited, I feel I need to make a plan so everyone has equal baby holding time and no one gets offended. But yet I want Doug and I to have our own time in the hospital and when we first get home. I'm trying to figure out what to pack in my bag and make sure that when I come home I come into a clean house. ----Just so many things to think about.

I don't think I've fully grasped the concept that a litte baby is coming into our home - a human, a soul. A little body I'm responsible for meeting each need. She has a little soul - a soul I need to teach and shepherd so that she knows Jesus. That is the scariest responsiblity. It's hard to imagine what life will be like with her. It's something I've never done and impossible to picture. As much as I wanted a baby for years and as much as I know about children, it's weird how many insecurities I have. Suddenly I have this overwhelming fear that maybe I don't have the slightest clue what to do with her. Maybe I'll bring her home, set her in the crib, and look at her like the biggest ignorant fool. Who knows?

It's hard to imagine what impact a child will have on our marriage. It's been just Doug and I for 5 years. We've fallen into our own pattern and we have a certain level of spontaneity. We love going out on dates and being wrapped up in each other. In a way, I don't want any of that to change. I love Doug so much, I hardly want to share him!

With my health, I lead a fairly quiet, sleepy life. I rest a bunch! It's hard to not wonder how drop dead tired and sick I'll feel keeping up with a child and waking up several times in the night.

It's also strange how attached I have grown to this belly. Audrey is physically a part of me. Each day her movements and growth just amaze me. How can anyone look at a pregnant woman or feel a baby kick and not know there is a God? I'm a walking testimony of his craftiness and love. I enjoy telling people all about God and His work in my life. It's amazing how a pregnant belly propels strangers to converse with me. People treat me so differently now. I remember thinking years back that I was surely never going to conceive. And I remember thinking surely I would not carry the baby to term. The life inside me is so excititng, so real, so blantantly screaming out to me that God is so awesome. Inspite of all the problems and sickness of pregnangy, I just feel like I could carry her a little longer! But, I'm sure Doug's anxious to have his pillows back at night and to not have to shave my legs for me. He'll be grateful I won't have as much time to keep up with ebay!. He hopefully won't need to rub my back as much and bend over and get all the things I always drop. But then again, we'll have to give up the stork parking spots at church and at the stores!!

In my last post I mentioned that I sing to Audrey each day. I thought maybe I'd share the song and a little history as to why I chose the song. I orignally heard the song about 8 years or so ago at a Fernando Ortega concert. He shared from his heart the agony of not being able to have children with his wife. After a long adoption process, he brought home a little baby girl, only to have her reclaimed by the birth mother a few days later. Through the painful journey, God gave him the words to an incredible song - "If You Were Mine." The pain in his voice was something I'll never forget. Through my struggle with infertility, I would occassionally hear the song he wrote on his CD and my heart completely understood the words and meaning of the song. I would often sing the song as a plea to God for a baby. When God did create this miracle child within me, I altered a few words to make it fit. I even have a third version ready to go for when Audrey is born. Grab a tissue 'cause here is the song:

When my heart is troubled and I am weighed down,
Then I like to think of how this lonesome world would be
If I could see your face or hold you in my arms,
If you were mine, if you were mine.
If you had a bad dream I would jump inside it,
And I would fight for you with all the strength that I could find.
I would lead you home by your tiny hand
If you were mine, if you were mine.
I would sing of love on the blackest night.
I would sing of God, and how His goodnes fills our lives.
I would sing to you 'til the morning light,
If you were mine, if you were mine.

My version changes it to "WHEN you are mine". For Audrey:

When my heart is troubled and I am weighed down,
Then I like to think of how this lonesome world will be
When I can see your face and hold you in my arms,
When you are mine, when you are mine.
If you have a bad dream I will jump inside it,
And I will fight for you with all the strength that I can find
I will lead you home by your tiny hand,
When you are mine, when you are mine.
I will sing of love on the blackest night
I will sing of God and how His goodness fills our lives.
I will sing to you 'til the morning light,
When you are mine, when you are mine.

When I see her little face and hold her in my arms the song changes again. "'CAUSE you are mine"

When my heart is troubled and I am weighed down
Then I like to think how this lonesome world has changed
'Cause I can see your face and hold you in my arms
'Cause you are mine, 'cause you are mine.
When you have a bad dream, I will jump inside it
And I will fight for you with all the strength that I can find
I will lead you home by your tiny hand
'Cause you are mine, 'cause you are mine.
I will sing of love on the blackest night
I will sing of God and how His goodness fills our lives.
I will sing to you 'til the morning light,
'Cause you are mine, 'cause you are mine.

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